This week was easily and without doubt the worst, most least productive, dismal, and pathetic week I’ve had working on KA in the past 236 weeks. I got through the single exercise from the Green’s Theorem section. And that’s it. I didn’t read through another article. I didn’t watch another video or start any other exercises. I didn’t do anything…

Since the beginning of December my stomach has been (excuse my language here) completely and utterly fucked. For some reason I haven’t been able to digest food properly and it’s lead to me having what looks like a beer gut for the past 90 days. It’s super attractive. 👍🏻 /s Considering how much effort I put into working out and eating healthy (and I don’t think it’s a stretch to say I’m obsessed about both of those things), I’ve been SO incredibly demoralized with how I’ve felt and looked, but I’ve been gritting my teeth and dealing with it. To try and fix it, I’ve experimented with taking things out of my diet and adding things in but haven’t figured out a solution. I feel like there’s literally nothing I can do and have no reason to believe that it is going to fix itself. I’m at a point now where I just feel hopeless, like I’m never going to have my body back the way it used to be. And it got way worse this past week…

On Wednesday I woke up in the middle of the night with aching pain in my stomach and felt like I was about to throw up. The entire morning I had a hard time breathing, and was nauseous and dizzy. I called in sick to work and it got a bit better as the day went on but my stomach continued to hurt. I didn’t eat much on Wednesday which is I think why my stomach was feeling a bit better on Thursday. On Friday, I woke up feeling worse than on Wednesday and puked my guts out three or four times in the morning. My head was spinning, I couldn’t breath properly, and I could barely stand up. I kept moving from my bed to my couch hoping that one would somehow provide more relief than the other, but no matter what I did I felt like I had just been hit in the head by a frying pan and it in the stomach with a baseball bat. The entire day was a write-off. Saturday things were a bit better, although I was still super dizzy throughout the day and my stomach was still in a lot of pain. Yesterday things improved, but my stomach was still screwed up and still it today. 😔

So, at this point I have no idea what to do and am super demoralized. My only “hope” (if you want to call it that) is that I have some form of Covid that my body will eventually be able to fight off. When I had Covid a year ago, my head was super dizzy so that makes me think this could be a similar type of thing. The worst part about all of this is that I have no clue what the problem is, if there’s anything I can even do about it, or if it will ever get better. Being in the dark about the problem and feeling like absolute crap at the same time is SO incredibly depressing.

I’m not going to talk about the math I did this week because a) there’s not much to talk about and b) I don’t have the energy or the motivation to do so anyways. Here are two questions from the exercise:

Question 1

Question 2

The only other math-y related thing I did this week was watch two videos on math that had nothing to do with what I’m currently learning in Multivariable Calculus. I’ve copied them below for no specific reason. I’m praying to the math gods that I have a better week on KA this coming week, and am praying to whatever gods will listen to help me get over this stupid stomach issue I’ve been dealing with. Fingers crossed on both accounts. 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼